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The Goal is: HOLINESS

Posted by Anne Elizabeth on February 24, 2011

Most recently I assisted a good friend in relocating her and her son back to her home state of New Jersey.  The trip was long, the gas was expensive, but thank heavens we drove in a rental car which turned out to be over $300 cheaper than renting a moving truck.

But before I left to help her move, my own life was taking an “expected” turn but still one that caused unnecessary stress in that I was leaving without a clue to where I would be returning to.

In December, the people living below me who support the loan of the owner of the building, moved out.  I KNEW that I had to move next, as I was just paying utilities and could not afford rent.  So I began petitioning heaven with that request, and when I saw nothing happening, I tried on my own to find a new location to live.  Stupid, yes, I know…and of course the attempt failed.  Twice I did this…not because the landlord was harassing me and insisting I move…I wanted to find a place and move out so they could rent the apartment I was in.

What puzzled me was, my heart was in the right place, so why didn’t God open the way for me to move?  As I write this, I still do not know the answer to this question.  But what I do know, and what I’m constantly reminded of is: GOD IS IN CHARGE.  He WILL NOT ABANDON ME.  He HAS A PLAN, I just need to be patient and obedient and wait for Him to move me.

Well, armed with this reminder, I proceeded to make ready to leave, when the landlord did make an appearance and informed me that he did find people to rent the apartment and I needed to be out by March 1st.   My return would be only 1 week away from that due date. I thought, swell!

Then God gave me another gift.  The night before I left, talking with my friend, I expressed my concerns with finding a place to live when she said, “God will provide you the place to live and everything will fall into place upon your return.”  This gave me great comfort so that I was able to sleep through the night and drive south refreshed; but now I’m half way through the week, and still nothing has been said on where I’m moving to…

In an earnest attempt to show my sincerity in accepting God’s timing I have begun to go through my belongings and “weed-out” the un-necessaries.  That which I haven’t used in years will go to one of our local thrift stores, and thus provide me with a little extra packing room.

While I was in this process, I found three letters that “hit home” with everything I am currently experiencing.  They were part of a letter series that I had passed on to a causal friend a few years ago, and have been appropriately labeled, “Instruction/Reminder#1”, “The KEY that has Opened the DOOR to God’s Immense Heart”, and “A Sign Post – Jesus –>This Way”.  I briefly looked them over and decided these might make a good read to help me bring my heart back on God’s course and off of my own.

I definitely have an idea of When I should move, without really consulting God on the matter, simply because I think I know better than Him?…haven’t you ever thought that way about your own life and it’s direction?

There are many factors involved in the move, certain pieces of furniture that needs to be removed by their owners who have loaned them for my use; which means coordinating with their schedule and not inconveniencing them.

But why should God not be concerned with these issues?  The answer, HE IS and His PLAN is ready for these issues.  My concerns are certainly unwarranted and brought on by a much more cunning source…Satan and his agents of doubt, confusion, panic, worry, and forgetfulness!

I put great stress on the last, Forgetfulness!  How could I forget such a LOVING GOD and all that He has done for me, consistently done for me?! Forgetfulness is Satan’s greatest tool, I think, because it lends him the freedom to wreak havoc in all matters of trust, as the person suffering from forgetfulness doesn’t remember that GOD IS FAITHFUL, even when we are not.

I am with you. How often I repeat this. I, Jesus, am with you. I, Jesus, will never leave you. I see everything that occurs in your life. I understand exactly where your pain originates.

[E]ven though you struggle, you remain connected to Me. I am able to heal you and send love through you. The signs of My presence are all around you, even though you struggle. Believe this.

I, Jesus, have told you that change is necessary. I, Jesus, have told you that I desire change. I do not abandon you…

You trust Me, I know. I will honor the trust you have placed in Me. I will bring all things to the good, both in your life and in the world… I will not betray you.

~Monthly Message, July 1, 2007 : “Instruction/Reminder #1” (my title)

My problem…human frailty….impatience…being in the ‘cultural NOW’ – that is everything must be done yesterday!  When I do not see or understand what God is doing, if I do not call out immediately to Christ and shout at the top of my lungs, “Jesus I Trust in YOU!”, then I have certainly left myself open and vulnerable to those agents of evil and misdeeds.  I have to return to the fundamentals of TRUST and FAITH in the God of the Universe who IS Faithful and Trustworthy.

Heavenly consideration is the compass which will insure a true course for each apostle… In every situation, consider heaven’s goals for you and for those around you… This apostle will make decisions in My company, aware of My goals.

Move into your day gently, aware that I may wish to adjust your course several times. You expect one thing, perhaps. But I, your Jesus, may need something else from you. You committed to a certain plan, perhaps. But I your Jesus, may have chosen a different plan altogether.

The words, “Trust In Me”, become ever louder and clearer with every passing heartbeat of my doubting heart as it is plagued constantly with Satan’s attacks of self-pity, panic, and the need to know NOW.

Only with thoughtful consideration will you be alert to My will in each situation… I understand your weaknesses and struggles. I do not fear the limits of your humanity. I have factored your weaknesses into the plan I have for you.

Trust in Me now, today. You have been taught not to be afraid of the future. Do not fear the future.

I am with you. I will direct you in each moment. You must be at peace so that others can learn about peace. You must be calm so that others can learn about calm. Do not underestimate the power of setting an example of heavenly consideration.

~Monthly Message,  June 1, 2007 : “The KEY that has Opened the DOOR to God’s IMMENSE HEART” (my title)

Okay, so how should I begin (again) the practices of TRUST and abandonment to the Divine Will?  Did not Jesus say…

“Who is the greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven?…Truly, I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will never enter the Kingdom of Heaven.  Whoever humbles himself like this child, he is the greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven.” (cf. Mt18: 1,3-4). 

“Unless you turn and become like little children…”  What is the greatest gift of childhood? 


They trust unreservedly that their parents/guardians will care for their every need.  So we must be like this with God.  We must TRUST unreservedly that GOD WILL PROVIDE for our basic needs: shelter, food, and water.  My new shelter, the place I will rest my head, is in God’s Loving Hand.  Nothing will I fear.

If an apostle wishes to reside with the Father, that apostle must become the child of the Father. God has no equal.

God has called His servants into a greater and deeper holiness.  For me personally, He has called me into a deeper form of prayer and service.  Quiet and solitude bear this fruit abundantly, and as He has certainly not called me to Religious Life, therefore it stands to reason that His plan not only includes this move but requires it.  So again, why should I have cause to doubt His plan, His sincerity in bringing me closer to Him.

Do you wonder why your Jesus calls you constantly further into holiness? Do I do this for My benefit? Yes. I do. I take great joy in seeing you advance, it is true. And yet, it is for your own personal benefit, also, that I call you to strive for higher heights. I want you to become as holy as you can.

Why holiness?  What is it about this state that makes it so important?  Earth is NOT our goal.  Heaven is.  We should be striving for Heaven, to spend our days in the presence of the Holy One, the Lamb of God, as He is in a radiant light such as cannot be found on this Earth.  Generated by the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit : LOVE Incarnate (Jesus), in Spirit, and in TRUTH (Father).  The Beatific Vision that none can glimpse and “live” in this temperate world, for to receive the gift is to desire Heaven beyond life – one dies in ecstasy of God because His goodness cannot be contained in the human existence alone.

I beckon you to come further and further into My heart. You are called to come closer to Me and move further from distractions. You turn your face toward heaven and in doing so you turn your face away from the world, which seeks to draw you away from Me.

I am with you in each moment, helping you. If you, my beloved apostles, will work with Me to become holier, I can reach others through you… Have no fear. You are loved.

~Monthly Message,  August 1, 2007 : “A Sign Post: Jesus –> This Way” (my title)

How then, in this small life, does one obtain the graces that lead to Holiness?  A big question to be sure, but not an impossible one to answer.  The Answer : LOVE : For when one LOVES without reserve, then one also has TOTAL TRUST.  Trust that God will NEVER falter, that God will ALWAYS provide, and that His Ways are far better than our ways.  If we can LOVE God without reserve in our hearts, then we will also TRUST HIM without doubt or sway.

And when the great tempter comes to plant those seeds of mistrust, confusion, and anxiety we will see him far off and be able to “set the dogs” on him to keep him away; that is we’ll call on God’s Angels and God’s Mighty Archangel, Michael, to surround us and keep us safe.  We won’t even hesitate.

And when we are given a command or direction, we’ll be able to do as those in holiness have exampled for us : DO WHAT GOD ASKS without hesitation, trusting that He is in charge and wouldn’t have asked if He didn’t have a plan to complete the direction or command.

His Glory will always shine through while the fruit of His plans will always bring LIFE and LOVE in abundance.  This should be a helpful clue to any who are caught in the occult that claims allegiance to “god”.  If the fruit is always destruction, confusion, feelings of self-loathing or hate, THIS IS NOT OF GOD THE FATHER who IS LOVE or God the Son WHO IS LOVE or God the Holy Spirit WHO IS LOVE.  God can never be anything else.  He can only be what HE IS : LOVE.

Do I desire TRUST in the Triune God?  YES.  Do I desire Holiness from which this TRUST is made manifest?  YES.  Will I live my life for His Holy Will?  YES!  Then whom or what should I fear?

If you… will work with Me to become holier, I can reach others through you… Have no fear. You are loved.

PS  Since the publishing of this writing God has provided a temporary sanctuary that provides for all my basic needs and further helps me in that call to “downsize thy possessions”!  His sense of timing and humor are always something to behold! 🙂

Suggested Reading:

Be Holy, For I the Lord Am Holy – Zenit

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The Kingdom of God VS the kingdom of Man

Posted by Anne Elizabeth on August 5, 2010

This writing sets itself primarily in this past Sunday’s readings, beginning with Ecclesiastes, moving within the Gospel of Luke, chapt 12, and the Monthly Message for August, reaching into a private reflection, and then concluding with the reading from Colossians with a little bit more of a private reflection and the Monthly Message.

The reflection came after a gift of time before the Blessed Sacrament, and I am most certain, as I retype it into this Post, the impact will be felt in my life greatly.  Currently, a good friend of mine is facing a possible eviction, I am without employment – again – with large bills soon to hit me head on, and another Brother in Christ is experiencing similar testing- though his effects a much larger audience than all of us put together; and it seems as if the world is about to take A REALLY MAJOR TURN that’s not necessarily for the best.  I guess we’ll wait and see on that one.

To Begin: Ecclesiastes 1: 2-3; 2:21-23; Luke 12: 16-17, 18, 20; Monthly MessageAugust, 2010

2 Vanity of vanities… All is vanity! 3 What does man gain by all the toil at which he toils under the sun?

16 And He told them a parable, saying, “The land of a rich man brought forth plentifully; 17 and he thought to himself, ‘What shall I do, for I have nowhere to store my crops?’

21 because sometimes a man who has toiled with wisdom and knowledge and skill must leave all to be enjoyed by a man who did not toil for it.

18 And he said, ‘I will do this: I will pull down my barns, and build larger ones; and there I will store all my grain and my goods.’

20 But God said to him, ‘Fool! This night your soul is required of you; and the things you have prepared, whose will they be?’

This also is vanity and a great evil. 22 What has a man from all the toil and strain with which he toils beneath the sun? 23 For all his days are full of pain, and his work is a vexation; even in the night his mind does not rest. This also is vanity.

Personal Reflection: For the work of the rich man was only for himself and NOT for the Kingdom of Heaven.  When shall our work be NOT vanity?  When does our work become GLORIOUS?  ANSWER: When it is done for the Kingdom of God.

Be at peace in your work, dear apostles. Neither hurry, nor delay. Do not pause in your service to heaven, wherever that service has taken you. We move at a steady pace if we are together.

If you are working without Me, you may find yourself either hurrying or delaying. I do not hurry and I do not delay. Test yourself today. Determine your pace. If it is steady and you are calm, all is well. If your pace is hurried, and you are not calm, perhaps you have forgotten that it is My work you are doing, and not your own.

Personal Reflection: For when the human mind is NOT OCCUPIED with the concerns of the Kingdom of God, but instead is occupied with the concerns of man – something that is forever changing and passing away; it is little wonder that frustration and despair should set in when there is NOTHING for man to grasp at.

However, should we concern ourselves with the kingdom of Heaven, and those concerns that lie within, then we can quite readily take hold of MUCH.  None of the least of these being our own salvation.  Goodness and kindness are actions one can aspire to and obtain.  Love of neighbor as one self can give voice to LOVE for the poor and action in service to the poor.  Prayer for family and friends lead to the tangible actions of concern and care – as their souls and well being are the focus. Thus much is done for them such as lighting a candle, praying extra Rosaries, attending Daily Mass and offering their participation in the Sacrifice of the Mass for those needs and intentions of their family and friends.

When this is done, a steady climb is man’s assent to the Kingdom of God.  Never wavering is the path we must take.  Narrow to be sure – if for no other reason than to keep our mind always active and mindful of where we are and what we are doing.

Such are the concerns of those who focus on the Kingdom of God.  A Kingdom that WILL COME in which the Will of the Father SHALL BE DONE, on earth as it is [done] in Heaven.  Man’s kingdom is quickly passing away.

Colossians 3: 1-5, 9-11

If then you have been raised with Christ, seek the things that are above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. 2 Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth. 3 For you have died, and your life is hid with Christ in God. 4 When Christ who is our life appears, then you also will appear with Him in glory.

If heaven has a goal to accomplish, heaven begins preparing early. Much of your service, My dear apostles, will be that of sowing seeds for future conversions.

Dearest apostles, so close to Me, can you accept this? Will you trust Me? Many people contribute to the construction of a building on earth. Think of all that happens before the building is erected. All of the materials must be created and fashioned and then assembled and there must be a plan. The people producing the materials may never see the building that is erected through their cooperation. It is this way with the Kingdom of God.

5 Put to death therefore what is earthly in you: fornication, impurity, passion, evil desire, and covetousness, which is idolatry. 6 On account of these the wrath of God is coming.

If you have stopped working for heaven, because you are sad, frustrated or discouraged, then that is a sign that you need Me to renew you and restore your confidence in our togetherness. I speak to you of abandonment and I ask you to regard the outcome of your service as irrelevant in that you are not in control of the fruits of your day. Most days, you will not see the fruits. Most days, you will not be able to understand the fruits.

This is because My beloved friends have a limited understanding of heaven’s power and heaven’s patience.

9 Do not lie to one another, seeing that you have put off the old nature with its practices 10 and have put on the new nature, which is being renewed in knowledge after the image of its creator. 11 Here there cannot be Greek and Jew, circumcised and uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave, free man, but Christ is all, and in all.

Personal Reflection continued… None may boast of being the clan to bear the likeness of Christ, for it was Christ who bore the likeness of Man.  It is Him who emptied Himself of His GODHEAD and became Man while remaining GOD.  No other can claim this for himself, so let no other BOAST of being the likeness of Christ and thus being above all others.  Only God has that privilege – only the Creator is above His creation.  For GOD IS ALL and IN ALL.  Only God – Creator – became His created in order to SAVE His creation with His own blood.

There are many hands at work in this world assembling materials for the construction of the edifice that the Father has willed for His Church on earth at this time. You are[my delight] my diligent workers who cheerfully stand forward to serve the King.

I thank you, dear friends. I urge you to trust, to patience and to lively participation in this plan, wherever I have placed you. Rejoice! Show others the happiness that comes with knowing you are loved and protected.

Recommended Reading/Viewing:

God Speaks…to me?
Time to Prepare

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