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How would you react… Part III

Posted by Anne Elizabeth on October 3, 2018

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Found on Google Images, Sept 30, 2018

I drove myself to the hospital for the PET scan which was NOT a walk in the park. My friend had already given me the heads-up about the procedure so I came prepared! I brought my eye mask with me so I’d have no idea what was going on beyond the incidental noises. But before any of that, they inject a sugar isotope that has to move around the body for 40 minutes. So you have to SIT perfectly still and close your eyes so that it goes to the cancer and no where else.

I DON’T SIT anymore. Even as I type this, I’m lying on my front on my bed. This is how I spend most of my time in fact. Lying on my front because the tumor is right there in my behind, growing, painful and super uncomfortable. I even eat lying on my front, when I have an appetite.

So sitting for this 40 minutes was on my side as much as I could do. But the only way for the scanner was on my back. I DON’T LIE ON MY BACK EITHER. So you can imagine my discomfort and pain. I had taken my pain pill earlier that morning, and it’s good for 8hrs. But it was approaching the last “hour” of the pill’s presence when I had to lie on that table for a good 20 – 30 minutes!!!  


I was sick to my stomach. They ask you to fast and drink a lot of water prior to the scan. I had done that – I got to pee before the scan – but my head was deprived of nourishment and I nearly fainted walking back to the waiting lounge. I also felt nauseous and nearly threw up a couple of times. Fortunately I had brought with me a snack pack of chicken salad and crackers.  They had small couches in the waiting room, so I climbed on to one and began the arduous task of eating not quite lying on my stomach. 

I also had to make another visit to the restroom. My body wasn’t reacting too well to the injection, even though the paper I was handed said that I should be able to return to my normal duties. Well I just made it home and ended up sleeping a good hour – my normal duties – and still feeling sick and dizzy!

Now, WHY the PET scan? Because my new Oncologist ordered it. The paper read,A second opinion”.  I don’t think he doubted the surgeon’s findings, but he wanted to be sure of what he would be treating. My appointment with him wouldn’t be until the following Thursday. And, as it turned out, I would follow his appointment with the Radiology Oncologist’s appointment. They are in the same building and right next to each other to be exact. 🙂


Believe it or not, but communications were going back and forth between family members about the current condition of my cancer and tumor – some were handling it better than others. But a promise had been made to cover the funeral expenses – again, I wasn’t leaving anything to the last minute. This current diagnosis wasn’t incurable, but anything is possible with cancer. PLUS this is a PURIFIER from God, and it could be His was of bringing me home asap. Something I’m definitely NOT opposed to! I had always said that I wanted my purgatory – PURIFICATION – done here on earth so that I could get home asap. 🙂

So during the next few days I began to plan for end of life possibilities. I made contact with my county’s Cancer Aid Society who have been unbelievable in the assistance they have provided me with! Contacted Home Health Care and also began the process of applying for my state’s Medicaid to cover the costs of the Oncologists. 

When that appointment finally arrived, my friend again drove me to it. She’s been with me since the beginning of this ordeal – back to the very first ER visit! I’ll never be able to adequately express my gratitude at her generosity with putting her own life on hold to help me through this. The Medicaid office also made contact with me en-route to the Oncologist because I was missing a month’s income that was crucial to my approval. I informed her where I was headed and made promise to email that information after my appointments. God’s timing has been everything!

EVERYTHING SEEMED to be falling into place…

Through all of this God has been present both in His servants and in their prayers. He’s provided the people and the resources to see me through this. He’s even given to me some heads-up moments before the events happened so as to not allow me to be taken by surprise and allowing His Graces to sustain me. This gives me even more TRUST in His goodness and mercy! Because the next visit was not what anyone was expecting to hear, except perhaps, by me.

To be continued…

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A Month Devoted to the Sacred Heart of Jesus…

Posted by Anne Elizabeth on June 8, 2018

“I have come that you might have LIFE!”

I begin with some necessary reads…

The Joy of Jesus

The Parallel DeceptionTIMELY!

Real Time : and the signs of the times in our world today

In the post before the last I wrote on the subject of the Two Hearts (Sacred Heart of Jesus and Immaculate Heart of Mary), and how God has provided us with this devotion to prepare us for the coming purification that will be for ALL the earth and its people.

Oddly enough, before I was granted the time to sit down and type, several wonderful resources came my way to make this post as meaningful as possible… 

An e-mail from an apostolate I subscribe to gave a good description of there where this devotion came from…

Then the Monthly Message arrived and gave further food for thought and confirmed what many have already warned…Change is upon us!

And then lastly, Mark posted a blog that ties all this together.  To quote Hannable from the A-Team, “I love it when a plan comes together!”…Of course, God’s plans ALWAYS comes together. 🙂


Why THIS devotion?  An additional question, Why did Christ die for us?


“In this fundamental devotion we have a synthesis of all the mystery of our redemption — of an infinite love that was ready to suffer death and be despised for our salvation.”

And how does God’s people choose to respond to this overwhelming gift of LOVE?…

“In return, He finds in so many human hearts nothing but hardness, forgetfulness, contempt and ingratitude: Jesus loves and yet is not loved;

“You cannot give what you do not have…” Fireproof, 2009, source: Google Pics

I recently re-watched a favorite movie of mine, Fireproof , that has a wonderful line in it.  If you haven’t already seen the picture, no worries, this won’t spoil a thing for you.  But Caleb Holt, the main character, is trying to show love and respect for his wife and his wife isn’t responding the way Caleb thinks she should.  So in his frustration he asks his Dad,

How am I suppose to show love over and over again to someone who constantly rejects me?!”

And his dad, while standing at the foot of a wooden cross in the clearing where they’re at, responds with,

“That’s a very good question.”

“His love is not even known because we will not deign to receive the gifts by which He proves His love, or listen to the secret and tender words of love that He wishes to speak to our hearts. ~Monsignor Ignacio Barreiro-Carámbula, HLI’s Interim President, July 1, 2011.

Yes, the world is the same.  Christ demonstrates His LOVE for us over and over again, and yet how many of His creation reject Him and His gift of LOVE?

Following the teachings of Saint Claude De La Colombière, we see how the Heart of Christ is always burning with love for men (symbolized by the flames coming from His Heart as we see in many paintings), always open to shower graces and blessings upon us, always touched by our sorrows, always eager to impart its treasures to us and give Himself to us, always ready to receive us, to be our refuge and dwelling place and our heaven even in this world. ~Ibid…emphasis added.

“Come all who are weary, and I will give you rest.”

To consecrate yourself to the Sacred Heart and the Immaculate heart, visit here for upcoming consecration details…


In this month’s message, Jesus reminds those who have answered the call to His service that we must…

act as holy hands and hearts. Your holy hands and your holy hearts are used to gently tap others, into service, into healing and into love for Me and all of the Father’s children on earth.

How earnestly I ask the Father for greater blessings for you. How earnestly I prompt you, through the Spirit, to continue on in service.

For it is in our service that Jesus is able to work through us to reach others…

You see…not only do I move through you to others, but I minister to you in a continuous way so that you are sustained…. I want you to understand that if you say no to Me, there are others who will not be comforted and others who will not be blessed and instructed through you.

So we must continue to resolve to GROW in HOLINESS and continue on a DAILY BASIS to renew our devotion to the Sacred Heart of Jesus AND to the Immaculate Heart of His/and our Mother…

“The heart that resembles that of Christ more than any other is without a doubt the Heart of Mary, His Immaculate Mother, and for this very reason the liturgy holds them up together for our veneration. Responding to the Virgin’s invitation at Fatima, let us entrust the whole world to her Immaculate Heart… so that it may experience the merciful love of God and know true peace.” ~Pope Benedict XVI, Sunday June 5, 2005, Angules Greeting.

We’re never alone, Christ will NEVER abandon us…and not only that, He has promised extra special graces for those who serve…

I know that there are times when you need encouragement, so at this time, I will send you evidence of either your progress or of the effect of your willingness to serve on others. Look for this, dear apostles, and then you will know that I AM with you and that I AM using your presence on earth…in this time of change~Monthly Message, ‘Anne’ Lay apostle, July, 2011.

And this ON TOP OF the promised already made for those who have a devotion to His Sacred Heart…

Of the many promises Our Lord Jesus Christ did reveal to Saint Margaret Mary in favor of souls devoted to His Sacred Heart the principal ones are as follows:

1. I will give them all the graces necessary for their state of life.

2. I will give peace in their families.

3. I will console them in all their troubles.

4. I will be their refuge in life and especially in death.

5. I will abundantly bless all their undertakings.

6. Sinners shall find in my Heart the source and infinite ocean of mercy.

7. Tepid souls shall become fervent.

8. Fervent souls shall rise speedily to great perfection.

9. I will bless those places wherein the image of My Sacred Heart shall be exposed and venerated.

10. I will give to priests the power to touch the most hardened hearts.

11. Persons who propagate this devotion shall have their names eternally written in my Heart.

12. In the excess of the mercy of my Heart, I promise you that My all powerful love will grant to all those who will receive Communion on the First Fridays, for nine consecutive months, the grace of final repentance: they will not die in My displeasure, nor without receiving the sacraments; and My Heart will be their secure refuge in that last hour.

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So with all of this, we have the tools to be ready for that great time of Evangelisation that will follow on the heals of the Church’s purification as taught in our Sacred History and found in the Catechism of the Catholic Church…

Before Christ’s second coming the Church must pass through a final trial that will shake the faith of many believers.  The persecution that accompanies her pilgrimage on earth will unveil the “mystery of iniquity” in the form of a religious deception offering men an apparent solution to their problems at the price of apostasy from the truth. The supreme religious deception is that of the Antichrist, a pseudo messianism by which man glorifies himself in place of God and of his Messiah come in the flesh. ~CCC§675

But he who endures to the end will be saved.  And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached throughout the whole world, as a testimony to all nations; and then the end will come. ~Mt24: 13-14

Mark’s post is a VITAL FOLLOW-UP to this post and I HIGHLY RECOMMEND reading it…

The Hour of the Laity

I pray that God will reach out to many wandering hearts and many servants whose hearts have grown cold to bring His Life and His Love to all who seek Him out…

Behold, I stand at the door and knock; IF ANY ONE hears My voice and opens the door [to your heart], I will come in to him and eat with him and he with Me. ~Rev 3:20


As the heavenly music continues to sound in my ears, I pass on this wonderful Blog-cast that reminds us the NEED to REMAIN in GOD and FOLLOW HIS COMMANDS with all our heart. The Eucharist IS our FOCUS!

O Sacrament Most Holy, O Sacrament Divine...

O Sacrament Most Holy, O Sacrament Divine…

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