Living in the Two Hearts

My Spiritual Insights and Musings

Posts Tagged ‘contraception’

Part IIIc…The Healing Begins!

Posted by Anne Elizabeth on June 30, 2009

Before I even type one word concerning obvious signs, I wish to relate a true story that requires your careful attention and respect.  Without this as a background, what you will read will seem cold and harsh instead of wounded and hurt.  For its truth I can personally testify the validity of the claim.

True Story

Picture, if you will, a small child whose current living situation consists of their parents, an older sibling, and an abusive grandmother.  The grandmother had a rather tragic life, what with her first husband committing suicide by hanging himself from the rafters.  Her two sons were the ones to find him. Interestingly, neither of them remembers the other being there.  Needless to say, all were profoundly affected and the mother dealt with her loss by turning to alcohol.  As a result, she became very abusive – both verbally and physically.  Her children undoubtedly bore the brunt of the abuse (2 sons and 2 daughters).

Her children eventually married, and one – the father of the two children mentioned above – decided to take his mother in to live with him and his family as she was not doing well by herself.  The kindness did not change the mother’s behaviors or habits, and her abuse then extended to his wife.

You know the old children’s rhyme, “Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words would never hurt me!” Who thought up that abominable LIE?!  Verbal abuse is actually WORSE than physical abuse because you cannot see the wounds left behind – the very DEEP WOUNDS left behind.  And since the abused have no idea they have been deeply wounded, the do not seek medical help to heal those wounds… but I digress.

Soon those abusive behaviors became part of the daughter-in-law’s behaviors, and her victims became her own children.  Her husband was already a victim of his mother’s attacks, and thus did not see the need to intervene.  After all, the abused rarely recognize abuse of others since, for them, it’s just normal behavior.  So the wife’s frustration level increased to the point of over-flowing and flowed-out of herself to her children. The most unfortunate part, one of her children was still very impressionable, and so they learned the WRONG behaviors as RIGHT behaviors or normal behaviors.

The child learned criticism instead of compliment, inadequacy instead of encouragement, they learned manipulation instead of compassion, they learned to give intimately in order to control and maintain instead of whole-hearted self-giving that allows for growth.  Thus the damage was complete and extensive setting forever into their conscious.  They received what I have come to understand as a mal-formed conscience– believing what is wrong is right and what is right is wrong – instead of receiving a conscience– that is seeing RIGHT and thinking it is WRONG and that WRONG is RIGHT.

This child’s malformed conscience began to express itself in school as the child only criticized and manipulated their fellow classmates, thus effectively alienating them from life-long friendships.  Temporary friendships were all they could maintain, excepting the one or two that followed who allowed the control and the manipulation as just part of the friendship.

Even after the mother-in-law moved away from the family, the damage she had caused remained and grew steadily worse.  Soon the two parents barely spoke to one another unless called for.  By the time the children were grown and left home, the father was spending much of his time in his hobby-shop or outside of the house while the mom went back to school, earned a degree and became a teacher.  The children grew too.  One married someone the family didn’t approve of and there has been strife in that matter ever since.  The other child married someone the family saw as easy to control and manipulate, even though there were many years between them, the family approved and the two were married with the family’s blessing.  They eventually had three children, and I am the first of the three.

To say that manipulation was from the beginning is no small matter.  Pre-marital relations existed, as did with many couples who used contraception in my parent’s day– and still is true today.  Parents who practice contraception often teach their children to “mind your P’s and Q’s”, which is code for “protect yourself with contraception” and is often the practice of the child/adult even after they are married. This particular child was also taught to seek a career before you have any kids – because once the kids come, bye bye career!  Thus presenting the other reason why contraception was taught and practiced.

Well, it was due to faulty contraception that conceived the first child, me.  Therefore, the above statement came true. But truly that was only a grain of salt added to the package that would eventually break the camel’s back – or would provide the final breaking-point.  Here is what really began the downward spiral towards hatred.

When the child was born (me), I became the first of two granddaughters – the other grandchild was born from the woman that the family didn’t approve of.  So, when I came into the world, the Grandparents were overjoyed and doted on me, giving me all the attention they could.  When I began my forming years, age 1 to 2 yrs – my Grandmother, the teacher, took it upon herself to teach me how to read.  I was reading just before the age of 2 yrs. Compliment after compliment, encouraging word after encouraging word… and this from the parent who never gave their own child even one word of encouragement or even one syllable of a compliment. What transformation had taken place?  Would it extend to their own children, and in particular to my parent?  No.  I’m sorry to say it did not, and still has not to this day.

So, if you were this parent, a person who excelled in everything you did, just to win one kind word from your mother and/or father, only never EVER to receive one… and you were raised with the notion that a spouse was something you MUST get no matter what the cost, a career is more desirable then children – so watch your p’s and q’s and use that contraception wisely… how would you feel – towards yourself and towards your child?  Be honest.  Would you take the situation lightly?  Would you shrug your shoulders and say, “Oh well! That’s life.” Or would you react as any wounded and hurt human being would react?  Wounded, hurt, and maybe a little bit… angry?

In order to heal a wound, it is necessary to understand the root cause of that wound, so that the correct medicine can be applied, yes?  In the case of an emotional wound, understanding, then, can lead self awareness which can lead to the desiring of forgiveness; forgiveness not just towards another person, but also towards oneself.  It’s a BOTH/AND situation: GOOD THEOLOGY. 😉  And THAT is the stated goal of this final Posting in this series, HEALING.

To be continued…

Posted in Personal Story | Tagged: , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a Comment »

The Meat of Humanae Vitae

Posted by Anne Elizabeth on October 29, 2008

Today we are going to get into the “meat of the matter”.

You know from the last posts the “why” for the document: The changes of society’s opinion on the sacredness of the conjugal act, how it became widely accepted as a means of Free Love ; and how the role of contraception contributed to the expansion of the practice, thus bringing into the question the use of contraception then into marriage as a means of regulating children.

Fact:Those interested in promoting the use of contraception within families targeted an idea of over-population.

As you will read in the above excerpt, the population scare was completely unfounded.  So much so, that today, we are now in a population decline unprecedented in the history of the Western world.  So…unrelated to the text, (or is it?) I ask an odd question: why would anyone want to decrease the World’s population?

Humanae Vitae: Part II

II. Doctrinal Principles

A Total Vision of Man

7. The problem of birth, like every other problem regarding human life, is to be considered, beyond (partial perspectives-whether of the biological or psychological, demographic or sociological orders) THE USUAL EFFECTS…

-in the light of an integral vision of man and of his vocation, not only his natural and earthly, but also his supernatural and eternal vocation(To think that this life on earth “is it”, and there’s nothing beyond it, is to believe that day is really night and night is really day.  We are eternal beings with an everlasting Creator as Our Father.)

And since, in the attempt to justify artificial methods of birth control, many have appealed to the demands both of conjugal love and of “responsible parenthood”

it is good to state very precisely the true concept of these two great realities of married life,.. (that is “they help one another to attain holiness in their married life (cf. 1Cor 7:14) and in welcoming and educating their children” ~CCC§1641; cf. GS§50)

(Authentic Married Love is caught up into Divine Love ~CCC§1639; cf Mk 10:6-9)

…referring principally to what was recently set forth in this regard, and in a highly authoritative form, by the Second Vatican Council in its pastoral constitution Gaudium et Spes (Constitution on the Church in the Modern World). (See above reference GS§50)

8. Conjugal love reveals its true nature and nobility when it is considered in its supreme origin, God, who is love, (1Jn 4:8) “the Father, from whom every family in Heaven and on earth is named.” (Eph 3:15)

(Did you get that?  The Conjugal act (sexual intimacy) comes from God – who IS LOVE – and thus God gives us the supreme means of expressing this… He gives us,)

Marriage is not, then, the effect of chance or the product of evolution of unconscious natural forces; it is the wise institution of the Creator to realize in mankind His design of love…

By means of the reciprocal personal gift of self, proper and exclusive to them, husband and wife tend towards the communion of their beings in view of mutual personal perfection, to collaborate with God in the generation and education of new lives. ~ cf. CCC§1641

For baptized persons, moreover, marriage invests the dignity of a sacramental sign of grace, inasmuch as it represents the union of Christ and of the Church. (Eph 5:25-33)

(Do you understand?  Marriage is not a human institution, easily re-defined by society – aka the Same-sex agenda.  No, Marriage is a sacramental sign of grace and instituted by God as a means of expressing fully His Love for us – Let’s Repeat this…)

8. Conjugal love reveals its true nature and nobility when it is considered in its supreme origin, God, who is love, (1Jn 4:8) “the Father, from whom every family in Heaven and on earth is named.” (Eph 3:15)

(This is not for US to mess with, to try and redefine.  Marriage represents the union of Christ and of the Church; and just as Christ holds NOTHING back from us, so too married couples CANNOT hold back from each other. By the use of contraception and artificial conception, that is what couples do… they keep a part of themselves out of the act.  What’s more, they do not allow God to act within them – to collaborate with God in the generation… of new lives.)

Its Characteristics

9. Under this light, there clearly appear the characteristic marks and demands of conjugal love, and it is of supreme importance to have an exact idea of these.

Tomorrow: What are the “Characteristic marks and demands” that appear so clearly?

Previous Posts:
Why Humanae Vitae?
All Life Is Sacred.

Posted in What the Church says... | Tagged: , , , , , , , | Leave a Comment »

%d bloggers like this: