Living in the Two Hearts

My Spiritual Insights and Musings

How would you react if… Part II

Posted by Anne Elizabeth on October 1, 2018

What’s going to happen next?

After being released from the hospital, I drove home and wondered what would happen… 


This now a tumor, when I thought before were hemorrhoids, started to make it’s presence known. All of the sudden I began to feel a lot of discomfort. As the week progressed, I began to feel some pain with that discomfort.

I had followed through with the surgeon’s request and made an appointment with his office. My initial meeting was to take place with his physician’s assistant. And at my last encounter with him, the day before I was to be released, he reminded me that the mass was cancerous and one of two types – one less serious than the other, and to not delay.

“Please don’t put off calling my offices to set up an appointment.”

His reaction was entirely based on the initial reaction in the ER, two days prior. That particular doctor never admitted to not telling me plain what I had. Instead he made it sound like I was in total denial. Oh brother! 

I eased his mind and told him I wouldn’t put it off, that I understood the seriousness of the situation.


So as my appointment approached I received a phone call from the office that they wanted to change my time. Strangely enough, they called just before they closed up their office. Me thinks too many people react badly to the prognosis of cancer, thus making the staff of such medical offices skiddish about contacting patients. What do you think?

But because his office is part of the hospital system I was able to speak with another nurse who made every guarantee to get a hold of his staff first thing in the morning to see what the schedule change was all about. Turned out that they wanted me to speak directly to the surgeon and not his assistance.


You betcha! Whenever it changes from the physician’s assistant to the primary care giver, the news becomes a telegram – no good news. And so it wasn’t. The type of cancer from the biopsy came back as the worst. He told me I wouldn’t like the numbers the Oncologist would give me. But I was getting the best they had and the best Radiologist Oncologist.

That was DEFINITELY God’s doing!

He then told me he would put the port in for any chemotherapy that might follow and I told him about my increased pain that I was feeling. He said it may be necessary down the road to do an emergency surgery where the tumor and colon would be removed together, but that he’d cross that bridge if we ever came to it.


I learned a little later, while I was talking with a wonderful man who’s family had the privilege of running the family business – a Funeral Home, (I wasn’t going to let anything wait to the last minute. If this was God’s way of bringing me home, then all the last details were going to be taken care of.), he said to me:

“Doctors write in pencil. So much is apt to change without warning.”

This was good advice, even though I didn’t understand it at the time he said it. This was also advice based on real life experience. Their son, now 16 yrs old, has been fighting cancer of the lung for the last two years. His cancer is a lot like mine in that it just appeared and without any family history behind it. 

So two weeks after that appointment I had my friend drive me to the ER because the pain had become intolerable and I FINALLY gotten a hold of my surgeon through his nurse practitioner who agreed and told me to get to the ER. Plus I believed the tumor had become bigger and that emergency surgery he had spoken of in his office might be a real possibility. In fact, I had everything with me just in case they gave me a hospital admittance.

I learned very quickly that neither my general practitioner nor my surgeon could order surgery. Only an ER doctor could do that. What a crazy system we have created!  

This time, however, it was in the afternoon and the ER was very busy. So it took a few hours before the needed exam finally took place. But when it did, the ER doctor determined that the tumor had indeed grown and was now an inch and a half INSIDE the colon; which explained all the pain I was going through! But at the same time, it gave me great satisfaction that I had accurately called the increase of the tumor. 🙂 Now, how about the surgery?

“Doctor’s write in pencil. So much is apt to change without warning.”

The ER doctor assured me he was my advocate and would relate the extent of my pain to my surgeon – I had kept a running record of those two weeks, thanks to my friend Carol’s advice. Yet the first one back was one of the male nurses – I must tell you that the entire staff were men and very good looking – and he brought with him a pain pill that was amazing! It took care of all the pressure and pain that I had been experiencing, and with very little side effects. This became my prescription pain pill. 

Next the doctor returned and relayed the surgeon’s advice:

“After talking extensively with your surgeon, he feels that based on where the tumor currently is in the colon that surgery would be too risky right now, and that it would be best to do radiation to shrink the tumor first before attempting surgery.”

“Doctor’s write in pencil. So much is apt to change without warning.”

Now this made sense. So with the pain pill and my over the counter pain medicine I would have to endure a little longer. Thankfully they said both work well together and to increase my dosage of the second one to two pills instead of just one. This has indeed helped! Besides, I knew I had a PET scan coming up that Friday with my first appointment with the Oncologist the following Thursday. Something more would be determined, no doubt about it! The question was, what?

To be continued…

I begin a week of Radiation this week. It’s also my birthday week (Oct 4th). Please keep me in your prayers and that the radiation treatment is successful. Thank you and God Bless!

This story will continue as I am writing everything out now (Sunday, Sept 30th) and they will publish themselves during the week. 😉

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