Living in the Two Hearts

My Spiritual Insights and Musings

Today, after morning Mass…

Posted by Anne Elizabeth on April 25, 2008

…while I was praying for deep consolation and assistance with the holding tight to the foot of my Savior’s Cross, I happen to look up and see a gentleman that I frequently see at Daily Mass.  He was wearing a T-shirt that read upside down, from left to right – If you can read this, please pick me up and place me back on my skis.

Did you laugh too?  So many times during the past few days, I have found myself doubting what God has been up to in my life.  This is nothing short of a direct attack on the part of the Enemy who is familiar with both my strengths and my weaknesses, thanks in part to careful observation.  So he knows what to do to “trip-me-up”, and often times he has moments of success.  As with all beings filled with pride in themselves, he often will try the same thing over and over again, completely convinced what he’s doing will be completely effective.  It is truly unfortunate when the repeated attempts are exactly that.  But, if the person under attack can become aware of the repeated attempts, then they can fight back and win!

This is what God meant for me when He drew my attention to the words on the T-shirt.  I had fallen off my skis, and needed help to get back up.  But I also needed to become even more aware of the tactics of the enemy and how he was able to knock me off my “skis” in the first place.

Trust is an issue that is very important to me, and often a large obstacle when I’m dealing with God as well as with those around me.  I won’t even begin to tell you the number of times my Trust has been abused and mistreated by others.  The scars left by that abuse and misuse are deep.  It is fair to say, “If you lose my Trust, you will never get it back.”  Has God ever abused or misused my Trust?  NEVER!  So why am I treating Him like I treat my fellow human beings who have misused or abused my Trust?

On my road to sanctity, this is what I like to call the Human side. It is my Human Side that forgets God IS Faithful, God IS Trustworthy, God WILL NEVER EVER let me down.  It is my Human Side that is often the target for the Enemy’s attacks.

Without the Cross of Christ and the outpouring of His Sacred Blood upon me, I will fall into mistrust every time!  But when I reach out to Him and cling to the foot of His Cross, Jesus not only reaches out to hold me tight to Him, but the action of His doing so causes His Precious Blood to flow ever more over me, drenching me if you will, with His Grace and Love contained within.

God’s consolation and answer to my prayers came with His wonderful sense of humor, reminding me He will always “pick me up and place me back on my skis”, as I continue on my journey towards Heaven.  Just so you know, I don’t ski, but often times I do feel like life is flying by.  May God grant me the graces to live each moment of my life entirely for Him in EVERYTHING that I do.  Should you desire the same, may He also do this for you!

In Jesus’ Prescious and Holy Name, I humbly pray, AMEN!

Ps Today I also received my first sunburn…spring is definately here with summer on the way…Thank you, Lord, for the wonderful change of the seasons!


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